I am not even quite sure why blogging has come in to my mind after a very...very long time. Guess, it's because of the table I used to operate my computer on is back, or perhaps gist of thoughts wandering in an open universe bounded and controlled by my mind.
I don't think I am having quite a good time these days and have been fighting with inner me. Nothing seems going well, nothing seems to be in place for me. 6 years after my B.Tech, not sure where I am and what am I doing. Guess, this is what happens to people like me who have no goal (or at least by virtue of my state of mind, I might be thinking these...).
I feel different. I know me as strong, obedient, goal oriented, self dependent and self motivated KID. But, apart from the part of KID, I guess, I am none of the above. I feel so low, so demotivated and so weak. I am not sure, how this blog would effect me in future, but I am bothered about present right now, because I want these gush of feelings to pop out of me. No, I haven't failed in love. Perhaps, the work that I do isn't right for me. I am not sure why it is so difficult for me to digest something. It was never like this before. I used to enjoy the work. Now, I am only scared. I immediately took out facebook, to pop my idea to them and discuss with them so that I can be part of the team which does something big.
Team - this is very strange word and amuses or scares me sometimes. A team, my idea, has to work together, hide each other's weakness and work for a better good.
I don't know, I will meet you later.
