Am I passionate?

Soon after completing my matriculation, like most of the students, even I didn't have any clear cut picture of what to do next. I joined one of the corporate colleges in my hometown for Intermediate education. Mathematics was my favourite and loved playing with arithmetic symbols. Slowly I started realizing that my goal to become an engineer ( when I never knew flavors of engineering) started fledgling. There might be many people like me, who couldn't excel and looked desperately for help to crack the competition. IIT, AIEEE, EAMCET three major goals, all whose destination is almost similar... "To become an Engineer".
I could never solve the puzzles put by faculty. I used to struggle with myself "why I ain't getting the result." where as my classmates could beat up so easily.
Am I mentally challenged person? Am I a child with below average intelligence? Is there any place for me on this earth for being just me? I used to take time in analysing things. Current world is fast and wanted things to be done efficiently in fastest environment. I don't know about the rest world, but the world for me at that time was cracking the competitive exams for pursuing higher education. In lay-man language, to transfer from one building to the other was all about competitive exams. Get less, I knew I would be in to low profile colleges and opposite with decent scores.
Pressure from all sides- faculty, students and parents to that matter, killed me every moment. I used to cry out loud to myself, I was never this low and I didn't like it. All steps which I took failed me in every boat I was into. I didn't even know how to swim and used to drown and die. I always failed, once again lifted myself to break it or understand it, I used to drown again. I could never match the ace of world and was cornered all the way. Much to learn, yet nothing was passing into my head and everything seemed so unnatural. I never lost hope in me. Though my parents whom I felt as my support, left me all alone. I don't want to comment on them. What they have done was right. They did that to me that day, so I became matured in thinking right and wrong for myself. My parents euphemetically, never left my hand. My dad always used to warn me about the future and I used to fear. I feel it would have been better if he had conveyed it in a well proper way- which a 16 year old can understand. My mother used to not understand the frustration left in me due to college works, punishments, academics, my fear about my future. All that she understood was to take me near her and let me express my feelings to her. Some time later, she started losing hope and in this whole world, I was the only one left for me who believed in me.
Somehow, one day, I passed Intermediate with a decent score, but failed in all the three competitive exams.  My father wanted me to become an IIT'ian and I bogged him down. I didn't even clear the paper. He was shattered and I still remember the pain he incurred when the results were out.
He expected, I'd at least make in AIEEE, but the rank which I got, gave me education in no good universities and hence I'd to forgo the opportunity. Wait a minute, I wasn't a student from normal regular batches, but was selected in to the star batch of my intermediate college. Our's was considered as top section., and this reason made my parents feel that I'd atleast get in EAMCET. But the truth is, ranks or scores doesn't matter in which batch you are but matters what depth have you understood. Yes, you got me right. I failed myself in getting expected scores in EAMCET too.
People criticized me saying " you have passed your time during intermediate and now that you are done with no score in hand. You will get admission in stupid colleges where you will be nothing in all those like you who are nothing's".- well these lines were from one of my classmate's parent- to whose home I went to call him out and play.
I felt shattered and saw nothing in this world which showcased "why I need to believe in me." All that which was lingering in my mind was to kill myself. I happen to meet Anirudh and Deepak, first of my friends ( I never had friend till my Intermediate) who felt that some day I'd achieve something in this world. Their hope and my mother's love brought me to this engineering domain.
I was into ECE (the evergreeen branch) in one of the engineering colleges in the city, which had no good reputation as top colleges had.  First day of my college went on well. I was a bit happy that I was into group that I'd liked the most. The other thing which challenged (alerted) me was that I'd be having the maximum competition in placements. All over about 9-12 Engineering colleges will participate in a pooled campus placements and Yes, it was just the same which I later experienced in my final year. However, it was very first batch ..erm i mean i'm into a newest college. The thing i'd learned is getting placed into a proffesional college is not the criterion, satisfying the necessity of market is the most important thing. Then I happened to attend the conference lead by APJ ABDUL KALAM (FORMER PRESIDENT OF INDIA) in NIT WARANGAL. I was inspired by his enthralling speech and learned that getting seat into an engineering college is just not sufficient but there's something more which we'll need to remember. In order to engineer the needs of consumers, one must have a sense. The quality that has to present in every engineer is ENGINEERING SENSE. Having passion on certain group isn't sufficient to get the right opportunity.Having engineering sense is most important for current market. Companies wanted people with this peculiarity. One thing made me most happy when I realised that all engineering colleges though have different lines of approach meet together at the common junction. Developing technology!
For this one has to dream bigger. To do this, one has to know the latest technology .......not only know but also applications of every technology of the corresponding ..........every one enjoys this time of 4 years. But let me tell you this time is not even sufficient to understand the technology implies there's no free time for the peculiar person.In order to get the best .......we'll need to dream the best. Having passion on things is not wrong, but giving direction to passion is the important.. has been my inspiration.Now don't ask me if i'm passionate.......I'm trying to be UNIQUE and I'm passionate about it.
I guess I was the most hated person in my class. There were jokes spread on to other departments of my college and I didn't care any of such comments. All this happened after my first speech on the stage on 30th December,2007. I spoke on improvising standards of college with few ideas which I had. I also shared information on how about's on various other aspects required for student. I never expected that I'd become over night popular, because I never did things for money and popularity. The thought process in me is always to help students like me and make them feel that they are never alone ,and I'm still continuing it.   .....the only formula for this is being passionate of the most liked things! I was commented that I'll never get placed and will never be able to fulfil my wishes, some said, I'll never be able to complete B.Tech and even if I did, I'd make it with low scores.
Today, after completing my engineering, I thank god for what ever he has given me. Yes, you got me right, I cleared B.Tech with 78.47 without any setbacks, and not just that, but I maintained my position in top list of the college and also placed with one of the finest MNC ... MAHINDRA SATYAM.
Thank you everyone who have been part of my success and being humble towards them, I'd like to share their names with you all.
Mom, Dad, Anirudh, Deepak, Dr.T.N.Prasunna (English faculty- MRIET), Mr.N.Vamsi Krishna(HOD-ECE), Devendar Reddy(Faculty),Mr.Daraggaiah (Principal), Mr.Muralidhar (Vice-Principal), and many more people who have been my support and helped in possible aspects to enrich myself and develop. 

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